Chapter 12

A/N: Sorry for the super super late update! been busy with school work, prelims and O’s and didn’t really have any inspirations to continue with this fic.. now that I’m free, I will try to post at least one chapter a week and finish this entire fanfic by the end of this year! Enjoy this chapter! 

Minutes later, Fany appeared at the doorstep panting and apologized for being late due to traffic problems in the shopping centre.

“Fany-ssi, did you see Yoochun” the manager asked impatiently.

“I saw him just now at the beach before unni and I left for the shopping centre, he’s not back yet?” Fany was surprised that she wasn’t the latest.

“obviously not” Jaejoong sighed in annoyance.

“I will find him” Fany left in a hurry.

She punched Yoochun’s number on her phone but it was all directed to his voicemail. She ran to the beach and saw Yoochun..but he wasn’t alone.

She walked closer and saw him hugging another woman.

* Isn’t she that girl in the picture?* Fany’s mouth widened in disbelief.

* Flashback starts*

DBSK members were rushing off for a photoshoot and Junsu forgot to bring along his phone. Since they were rushing off, Fany volunteered to drive back to their hostel to collect his phone for him. While she was walking towards Junsu’s room, she realized that Yoochun’s door wasn’t closed properly. She walked and wanted to close the door for him and when she accidentally saw a box of photos. Fany remembered seeing Yoochun tearing while looking at the photos and always trying to avoid the topic when Fany asked him about them. A strong desire to peep into the box was burning within Fany.

*If Yoochun finds out about this, I’m gonna be dead..* Fany thought as she entered his room.

*Who is this…. Yoo..Yoochun’s girl… girlfriend?!* A teardrop streamed down Fany’s flawless face as she looked at the photos

“So the reason that made Yoochun cried all this while was this girl?” Fany murmured and clenched her fist tightly on the ribbon used to tie around the box.

*Flashback ends*

 

*What is she doing here?!* Fany could feel jealousy burning within her.

 

Yoochun’s POV

Does Fany really like Donghae? Does she?” Yoochun pondered.

Yoochun turned his head to face the sea and sighed. Scenes of him playing with MiYoung at the beach resurfaced once again. Feeling down, Yoochun continued strolling along the beach, hoping for the approaching waves to wash his sad memories away.

 

As night was slowly approaching, Yoochun stopped in his tracks and was preparing to return back to the resort when an anonymous girl suddenly ran up to him and hugged him.

 

As the girl had long hair which was covering her face, Yoochun had no idea who it was and assumed that she was one of those crazy fans that probably had been stalking him since they arrived at the airport.

 

“Hey, get a grip of yourself, stop hugging and following me okay?” Yoochun tried to push the girl away but the girl continued hugging and this time round, hugged even tighter.

 

Due to Yoochun’s ‘already-foul’ mood, he got annoyed and shouted.

“YAH!”

 

“Oppa, don’t you miss me? Why are you so fierce to the girl you once fell in love with?” After saying so, she hugged even harder.

 

*This voice… I’ve heard it before…* Yoochun thought.

“Kim…Kim MiSoon-ssi?” Yoochun’s voice faltered and he pulled MiSoon away from him.

 

“Park Yoochun-ssi, you finally recognized me” MiSoon grinned.

 

“What are you doing here? Do you know what will happen if someone spotted us being here together?!” Yoochun raised his voice.

 

“Being protective again oppa?” MiSoon teased. “Don’t you mis me? We haven’t met each other for ages! Now that I’m right in front of you, you are asking me to leave?!” MiSoon pretended to sound hurt.

 

“Miss You? You and Mi-Young disappeared unknowingly for the past few years, not even leaving behind any note.. NOTHING! I spent almost a year trying to find you two to explain and…” Before Yoochun could finish his sentence, MiSoon hugged him again and whispered to his ear, “But oppa, now I’m back” and then thought to herself * Back for good*

 

Fany’s POV

 

“What is she doing here? Why is he hugging someone who has hurt him so badly?” Fany stumbled backwards and ran back to the resort. Little did she know that she has already fallen deeply in love with Yoochun.

 

Yoochun’s POV

 

“It doesn’t matter anymore to me whether you are back… I’ve lived on with my life and you should too” Yoochun ran away while saying, afraid that staying any longer would make him fall in love with MiSoon again.

 

*Oppa, it’s not up to you to decide whether I should leave or stay.. lived on with your life? You mean your love life with that girl?* MiSoon grinned.

 

BACK AT THE RESORT….

 

 Fany arrived at the resort first.

“Fany-ssi, did you see hyung?” Junsu asked.

 

“Ani… I couldn’t find him” Fany lied. She knew that Yoochun would be in deep trouble if his manager found out that Yoochun has been hanging out with a girl during the night.

 

“Hey! I’m back!” Yoochun appeared at the door.

 

“Yah! Where have you been! We called you for umpteen times and even asked Fany to look for you!” Yunho asked.

 

“I.. I got lost on my way back.. you know Saipan is really huge” Yoochun rubbed the back of his head and lied. He looked towards Fany and wondered if Fany saw him earlier with MiSoon.

 

Yoochun’s gaze caught Fany by surprise and she looked away immediately.

 

“Okay, enough of the drama for tonight. There’s filming tomorrow, sleep early” their manager walked back to his room.

 

Fany went back to her room with the make up artist unnie. She washed up and went to bed. No matter how hard she tried, she could not stop thinking about the scene of Yoochun hugging the girl. There was a growing curiosity for the girl.. but who could she ask?

 

“AH!” the eureka moment hit on her as she got up from her bed, wakening her unnie.

 

“Yah, go back to sleep!” unnie threw a pillow at her.

THE NEXT MORNING…

 

Fany got up early and went to the supermart nearby to buy some snacks. She knew that DBSK’s filming would only start in the afternoon soshe had the entire morning to interrogate her “witness”.

 

“Changmin-ssi, are you free? I need to ask you something in private… meet you at the beach nearest to the resort.” Fany sent a message.

 

MINUTES LATER…

 

“Fany-ssi, why do you want to meet me so early in the morning? I need my sleep and most importantly.. FOOD!” Changmin pouted.

 

Fany took out and flashed the huge bag of snacks in front of Changmin.

 

“Good! You came prepared!” Changmin exclaimed.

 

“Changmin-ssi, you are very close to the members right? Like Yoochun-ssi…”

 

“Of course! I knew them ever since the trainee days! I may be the maknae but I know EVERYTHING!” Changmin proudly exclaimed while stuffing himself with a mouthful of potato chips.

 

“then… has Yoochun ever dated before?”

 

“Yeap! Hyung dated many girls before! But there was one that he was quite serious about. & you know what’s the most surprising thing about that relationship? J..”

 

*Cough cough*

 

Changmin was interrupted halfway when someone appeared behind them. Changmin’s eyes enlarged, “Hyung…”

 

 

 

 

1:40 am, by forbidden-love
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Chapter 11

Fany’s POV

*I heard a lot of fangirls swearing at me, but why? Have I done anything wrong? Then I suddenly felt that my whole body has been pushed violently onto the ground. Yoochun ran up from the front and carried me up. Didn’t he? When he placed his warm hand onto my shoulder, I got the feeling that I would be well-protected. Yoochun-ssi, how I wish this moment of assurance would last forever…*

 

After 2 hours of awkwardness on the van, the company finally arrived in the villa that they were suppose to stay in for the next 3 weeks.


Fany and DBSK’s manager went to the front desk to collect their keys.

Room arrangement: Yoochun and Junsu

                        Jaejoong and Yunho

                        Changmin and their manager

                        Fany and their make up artist

In the midst of waiting for their room keys, the boys were allowed to roam around the hotel. Junsu and Changmin went to the cafeteria to get sandwiches for everyone while Yunho went to the washroom, leaving Yoochun and Jaejoong alone at the beach.

A/N: please ignore junsu in the picture!

“Hyung” Jaejoong started the conversation.

Yoochun turned his head and looked at Jaejoong.

Jaejoong inhaled deeply and asked “ Hyung, Fany-ssi, you like her?” Upon saying this, Jaejoong suddenly felt a tinge of regret and lowered his head, hoping that Yoochun would just ignore him and walk away.


Yoochun was shocked. He did not know how to answer. Will saying yes lead to an immediate stop to their 5year friendship? Or will saying no lead to an immediate loss of his love life?

Jaejoong inhaled deeply again.

“ I like her” Three words that were deeply carved in Yoochun’s mind. Yoochun’s eyes widened. He turned to face Jaejoong again.

This time round, Jaejoong walked closer towards Yoochun and whispered to his ear.

“ I lost to you previously, this time round, I will win her, regardless of whether you have feelings for her” Jaejoong walked away with a smirk, placing his hands into his pocket.

Yoochun was loss for words. He has a rival.. again… He kicked the sand roughly.

 

 Yoochun walked aimlessly, still thinking about what has just happened and accidentally bumped into one of the tourists. Since he wasn’t really paying attention to where he was walking to, he did not see who he actually bumped into and just continued to walk away.

A grin formed on the tourist’s face. “Oppa, I found you” and just walked away.

 

Later in the afternoon after lunch, DBSK began their shooting.


Scenes of her found in the cemetery and being attacked by the fans just now kept reappearing before her eyes. She shook her head and walked away alone.

Yoochun, who was in the midst of shooting, saw Fany leaving and worried worry for her. Junsu, who was next to him figured out what was going on and whispered into Yoochun’s ear, “ Hyung, Fany would be alright on her own, concentrate on the shooting now!” Yoochun took a deep breath and faked a smile in front of the camera that was approaching them. He had to admit, he was really worried for Fany.

 

Instead of walking the longer way to the beach, she decided to cut through the small forest. As she was walking, she felt that there was someone following behind her which sent shivers down her spine. The rustling sound of feet dragged across a litter of leaves tempted her to look behind. She paused at her tracks and turned. To her surprise, there was no one at all. She continued to walk even faster and felt safer when she reached the beach where there were a huge crowd playing beachball. She strolled along the beach and look at the small kids that run across her with wide smiles plastered across their faces, reminding her about the happy moments when she used to play catching with her mom when she was still young.

 

After 2 hours of shooting, the producer gave everyone a short ½ hour break. Yoochun ran to find Fany once the cameras stopped rolling which surprised the members.

“Yah, I was planning to ask hyung to treat me to a meal at that shop” Changmin rubbed his stomach.

 

 

Fany gazed at the beautiful horizon and started writing words on the sand.

“ YOOCHUN-SSI

SARANGHAE”

“Fany-ssi!” Yoochun screamed from afar as he ran towards her.

“OMG wave! faster remove the words” Fany screamed softly.

“What are you doing here?” Yoochun asked.

Fany stood in front of the words she wrote, trying to prevent Yoochun from seeing.

“ Ah nothing” Fany scratched her head while trying her best to ‘erase’ the words by kicking the sand with her foot.

“Are you hiding something from me?!” Yoochun raised his voice.

“Why are you shouting at me? Aren’t you suppose to be filming now? Are you trying to skive? Go back!” Fany tried to push Yoochun away and ran in the opposite direction.

Yoochun rubbed his head and looked at the sand beneath him. Fany didn’t erase what she wrote completely, leaving the word, .

“Hae? Don’t tell me she likes DongHae?!” Yoochun tightened his fists and walked away.

A/N: Dong Hae’s a member from Super Junior, not really very important in this story:D

½ hour passed and DBSK resumed their shooting. Yoochun was still thinking about the “” incident and was quite pissed about it.

“hyung why are you so uptight?” Junsu asked when they were resting from 10 minutes.

“Fany..she.. Haiz never mind” Yoochun pouted


After another 3 hours of shooting, they are finally allowed to have their free time. The members, together with the manager and Fany, went to the hotel’s restaurant for their dinner. Yoochun sat opposite Fany and could not stop thinking about what happened earlier in the afternoon. He looked up and stare at Fany. Fany could sense that Yoochun was staring at her throughout the meal, and felt uneasy.

“You guys can roam around this area for 2 hours, later meet in my room at 8 to discuss about tomorrow’s activity.” the manager said.

Fany went shopping with the make up artist while the rest went to roam around by themselves. As usual, Changmin and Junsu went to source for more food, Yunho heads to the gym and Jaejoong went for a swim. Yoochun was just strolling alone at the beach again.

 

Time passed and it was already nearing 8 o’clock. Most of the members were already waiting in their manager’s room but Yoochun and Fany were nowhere in sight. Junsu dialed their numbers but both were “user busy”.

Minutes later, Fany appeared at the doorstep panting and apologized for being late due to traffic problems in the shopping centre.

“Fany-ssi, did you see Yoochun” the manager asked impatiently.

“I saw him just now at the beach before unni and I left for the shopping centre, he’s not back yet?” Fany was surprised that she wasn’t the latest.

“obviously not” Jaejoong sighed in annoyance.

“I will find him” Fany left in a hurry.

She punched Yoochun’s number on her phone but it was all directed to his voicemail. She ran to the beach and saw Yoochun..but he wasn’t alone.

She walked closer and saw him hugging another woman.

* Isn’t she ____* Fany’s mouth widened in disbelief.


 

6:53 am, by forbidden-love
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Chapter 10

Back in Yoochun’s room…

Yoochun was tired after what had happened that day.. That unexpected phone call, bad news, search for someone he liked… he couldn’t handle them all at one go. He dived and laid on his bed.

“Wae… why is all this things happening to me? Doesn’t everyone deserve happiness… that day when I said those things to Mi Young, I only wanted her to find her own happiness.. was it all wrong? If she continued to stay by my side, would everything be all right now?”

*Scenes of the happy moments Mi Young and Yoochun had together resurfaced *

Yoochun placed his hand over his eyes and teared, slowly falling asleep.

Back at Fany’s house

 

“What was Yoochun trying to do?”

Fany dumped her bag onto the couch and lied on the bed…

“that sudden cold and warm feeling that he’s giving me… Why is this happening to me?!”

Fany started having flashbacks of the happy moments she had with her ex-boyfriend.

“Aish, freak you!” Fany threw her pillow onto the floor the moment she thought of how her ex-boyfriend betrayed her for another girl.

* I should just live on with my life. Who cares if Yoo Chun’s going to be nice to me or not.. he’s most probably just having mood swings. If he’s good to me, I will be good to him. If he’s bad to me, I’m just going to ignore him.* Fany promised herself and went to sleep.

 

THE NEXT DAY…

 

Fany got up early at 5 as DBSK has a shooting in SAIPAN!! Fany started packing luggage while giving the members a wake up call.

* ring ring *

“ Hmmm yes?” the person answered.

* Aish that person must be Changmin, he’s always sound this tired huh? * Fany thought .

“ YAH! Choikang Changmin! Tell your other members to wake up and start packing for the trip! I’m coming in 20 minutes okay!” Fany shouted over the phone.”

“Aish, judging from her voice, i guess Fany’s over the incident that happened yesterday..” Changmin yawned.

He stood up and went to wake the other members up.

“Yah hyung! Wake up!” Changmin climbed onto Junsu and pestered him to wake up.

“go away!” Junsu pouted and went back to sleep.

Changmin stood up and went to the other hyungs’ room. Until…

* Aye, why is Yoochun’s door not closed? * Changmin wondered.

Changmin opened the door softly and realized that Yoochun was missing. Changmin got worried and ran to the rest of the members.

“ Just call his cellphone you pabo!” Jaejoong answered impatiently while trying to find his favourite sweater in his messy wardrobe.

“oh yeah” Changmin face-palmed himself when he realized that he forgot to call Yoochun.

 “The number you have called is currently unavailable. Please try again later”

 “Hyung, Yoochun-hyung isn’t answering his phone! Ottoke?” A worried expression appeared on Changmin’s face.

“Just give him another 10 minutes. I don’t think he will forget about the schedule we are having today. Our short tv series at Saipan and music video for our comeback song. Go and pack your stuff okay.” Jaejoong continued packing.

Changmin dragged his feet towards his room, worried that something might have happened to Yoochun.

* the sound of the door being opened *

The boys immediately peeped from their door frames

 “Hyung, you’re finally back!” Changmin shouted when he saw Yoochun standing at the entrance.

“ I only went out for a walk, why are you feeling so uptight?!” Yoochun sounded really surprised.

“Yah hyung, did you forget about the schedule for today? We are going to SAIPAN~~~!” Changmin raised his voice in excitement and started dancing around crazily.

“Oh…” Yoochun’s lips formed an “O” shape the moment he remembered that they were going to Saipan.

* If we are going to Saipan for a week, doesn’t it mean that Fany-ssi will be staying over too? Oh gosh” Yoochun wondered.

While on the other side…

* If we are going to Saipan for a week, doesn’t it mean that Fany-ssi will be staying over too? YES!” Jaejoong screamed in his head with excitement.

At that moment, the door opened again. It was Fany.

*Since Yoochun hasn’t returned to his room yet, he was quite near to the door. *

“oh” a moment of awkwardness when Fany opened the door and saw Yoochun.

Yoochun blinked at Fany and ran to his room, leaving Fany dumb founded at the spot she was in.

“That tinge of hurt in her eyes” Yoochun banged his hands against the door.

(please picture him with clothes)

After 10 minutes, the DBSK members came out of their room one by one with their luggages and hand carriers.

 “Fany-ssi, do you want to try this? I made it yesterday” Jaejoong carried a tray of jellies from the kitchen.

“Hyung! So you made it from Fany-ssi? No wonder you kicked me out of the kitchen yesterday when I tried to eat one of them” Changmin pouted and placed his hand against his flat stomach.

 “ Oh, thanks!” Fany took the plate of jellies over and passed some to Changmin and Junsu.

 “hey guys, the van is already here, lets go!” Fany said as she received a message from the van driver.

* the van’s seating arrangement: 2 by 2 *

Junsu grabbed Changmin away as Changmin’s always the one with food.

Yunho wanted to discuss with Jaejoong about the duet they would be having together.

Their manager oppa will meet them directly at Saipan.

That leaves Yoochun with no choice but to sit with….. FANY!

Finally, the van was ready to set off.

On the way to the airport, Yoochun didn’t talk to Fany… neither did Fany even look at Yoochun.

Yoochun put on his ear piece and stared out of the window, while Fany started reading her book.

Jaejoong was trying his best to pay attention to Yunho but his mind was fixated at Fany’s beautiful facial features.

While at the back of the van, Changmin and Junsu were making a huge fuss, and as always, fighting over food.

“Aish” Fany rubbed her head as she started to feel giddy by the random stops of the van.

Yoochun snatched her book away which made Fany pout. She tried to snatch the book back when the van suddenly halted again. This time, Fany lost her balance and fall onto Yoochun’s lap!

* Oh driver-ahjussi!* Fany cursed.

Fany sprang up and looked out of the window without realizing that both of them were actually blushing.

Yoochun coughed and twitched his eyebrows to make the situation less awkward.

Yoochun passed to Fany his extra ear piece and told her to sleep. Soon, Fany found herself sleeping… on Yoochun’s shoulder!

Jaejoong, who has been watching the scene all along, clutched his fists in jealousy.

After a 20 minutes long ride, they finally arrived at the airport. As usual, there were thousands of fans waiting at the gate for DBSK.

*God knows how these fans know their schedule so well. *

Despite having security guards trying to pave a way for DBSK to pass through, the fans still managed to push the security guards, causing the members to be pushed around easily too.

“YAH bitch, don’t get too close to my oppa! Otherwise I will send people to burn down your house tomorrow!” A fan shouted at Fany.

Fany felt hurt and felt like crying when she heard what the girl called her and Jaejoong really felt like ripping her mouth off.

Some of the fans realized that Fany ( a girl) was standing quite close to their beloved oppas and also started screaming and swearing at Fany. One of them went to the extreme and pushed Fany onto the ground.

Yoochun heard the commotion and immediately ran to Fany and helped her out. Seeing this scene, the fangirls screamed even more.

Yoochun placed his hand on Fany’s shoulder and brought her away while Fany was crying really badly.

* It’s okay Fany, it will be over soon. Stay strong * Yoochun said softly.

 

Fany’s POV

*I heard a lot of fangirls swearing at me, but why? Have I done anything wrong? Then I suddenly felt that my whole body has been pushed violently onto the ground. Yoochun ran up from the front and carried me up. Didn’t he? When he placed his warm hand onto my shoulder, I got the feeling that I would be well-protected. Yoochun-ssi, how I wish this moment of assurance would last forever…*

 

A/N :

The next chapter would be nicer cause there would be a mysterious guest coming! ANTICIPATE!!!

 

 

10:59 am, by forbidden-love
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Chapter 9

A/N: sorry for the long awaited chapter:(

“Let go!” Fany tried her best to struggle free but she was still trapped in his arms. 

Fany looked up and was surprised to see the person that she had never expected. 

 

“…” Fany tried to say his name out but got grabbed tightly into a kiss. Astounded, she tried to break free again.

“ Fany-ssi, don’t you have a cell phone?! Can’t you just answer it? You know how the whole world is flipping the place upside down and inside out just to looks for you?! ” The guy scolded her.

Fany was still shocked by the forced kiss just now and wasn’t listening what the guy was saying. She slowly took small steps backwards, attempting to get away from the place, from him immediately.

“Hey! Where are you going?!” the guy pulled Fany’s hand and hugged her again. This time round, her back was facing him.

“Fany-ssi, mianhae.. I was too harsh on you today. Something happened once, and I didn’t want it to happen again.. sorry, really sorry! ”

Fany recalled what happened earlier in the morning and was still upset over it. She remained silent and walked away. Yoochun knew that Fany was still upset over what he did so he didn’t say much.

“Fany-ssi” Yoochun pulled her wrist again “ This way.” Yoochun didn’t let go off her hand and leaded her to his car. Fany, on the other hand, felt warmth in Yoochun’s hand. In fact, she had an unusual sense of joy within her as she saw Yoochun’s masculine back, hinting to her that he would be able to protect her no matter what happens.

“hey hyung! You’re back! Have you found..? Oh..” Junsu shouted immediately once he saw Yoochun appearing from the door and saw Fany appearing behind him. However, as he could sense that something wrong was happening and was still feeling apologetic for making Yoochun angry in the afternoon, he didn’t dare to say anything else.

Yoochun threw his car keys onto the table and went straight into his room while Fany placed her sling bag on the couch and went to the rooftop.

(ignore the background!)

 

“hey!” Jaejoong appeared from the back.

Fany was still kind of upset and didnt had the mood to continue the situation so she forced a smile out.

 

Jaejoong’s POV

*Is Fany still upset over what happened in the afternoon? It’s weird if I asked her such a question right? Never mind, I shall just sit next to her and be there if she needs me.*

Slowly, he sat down beside her and there wasn’t any conversation between them for the past 10 minutes until Fany finally said something.

“Jaejoong-ssi, what would you do if you have someone you like, but you aren’t sure whether the other party likes you too?”

*OHMYGOD, is Fany going to confess to me?” Jaejoong’s eyes enlarged.

Fany could sense that she might have phrased the question wrongly and might have caused Jaejoong to be misunderstood.

“Ah mi-an, just treat it as if I didn’t say anything..” Fany ended her sentence awkwardly. 

END OF JAEJOONG’S POV

 Jaejoong looked up into the sky and saw many stars.

“Fany-ssi, you see that star constellation up there? The one that is shaped like a ‘W’.” Jaejoong pointed his finger up into the sky.

Fany raised her head.

“what about it?” Fany said.

“the 5 star constellation shaped in that is called Cassiopeia, which is our official fan club’s name” Jaejoong explained.

Fany, on the other hand, didn’t seem interested at all.

Jaejoong inhaled a deep breathe and continued saying, “ Cassiopeia was a greek goddess that’s kind, caring but rare…” Jaejoong continued blabbering while Fany was still trying to figure what’s the whole point of Jaejoong talking about constellations.

*What does it got to do with me?! * Fany screamed in her head. *

While in Jaejoong’s mind…

*Fany-ssi, can’t you get what I’m trying to imply?  *

Fany stood up and said, “ Thanks Jaejoong for whatever you’ve just said.. It has been a long day for me.. bye! See you tomorrow” She walked away without turning back while her back view mesmerized Jaejoong.

Fany-ssi, it’s okay if you don’t get it now… just remember that you’re my new found goddessJ* Jaejoong stood up and leaned against the wall, once again, gazing at the Cassiopeia.

 

Back in Yoochun’s room…

Yoochun was tired after what had happened that day.. That unexpected phone call, bad news, search for someone he liked… he couldn’t handle them all at one go. He dived and laid on his bed.

“Wae… why is all this things happening to me? Doesn’t everyone deserve happiness… that day when I said those things to Mi Young, I only wanted her to find her own happiness.. was it all wrong? If she continued to stay by my side, would everything be all right now?”

*Scenes of the happy moments Mi Young and Yoochun had together resurfaced *

Yoochun placed his hand over his eyes and teared, slowly falling asleep.

 

 

 

 

10:39 am, by forbidden-love
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Chapter 8

“Damn, why isn’t she answering her phone?!” He tossed his phone to the back seat and started driving.

"Nothing must happen to you, Fany! Please"Yoochun prayed.

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*Back at the cemetery*

Fany wiped off her tears and stood up. 

"Shit, what time is it now?!" Fany glanced at her watch. 

*10:00pm*

"Oh mo, it’s so late already? The last shuttle bus comes at 0930…How?!" Fany starts hitting her head with her palm, reprimanding herself for not taking note of the time. 

Fany looked around her and couldn’t find a single person within the area she was in. She could hardly find her own way out when the whole place was already so dark. 

*Ah, phone!* Fany immediately remembered. Sadly, her phone wasn’t working cause the battery was low. 

"Seriously, can things get any worst=.=" Fany cursed. 

"Where can I head to?" Fany was afraid as she had this phobia of being alone in the dark especially when she did not even know how to get out. Being afraid, she started to crouch down low and prayed. 

Suddenly, she heard someone dragging his feet against the fallen leaves. Fany stopped crying and stood up. As she could sense the footsteps seemed to be approaching her, she immediately headed towards a direction and started walking fast when she accidentally banged into someone. 

"Oh sorry, really sorry" Fany did not dare to raise her head as she did not want to scare herself that the person she just bumped into might not be a "person" 

Unexpectedly, the person actually pulled Fany into his arms.

"Let go!" Fany tried her best to struggle free but she was still trapped in his arms. 

Fany looked up and was surprised to see the person that she had never expected. 


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Chapter 7

A/N: sorry for the extremely long MIA! To make up for it, this chapter is going to be very long but a little confusing. Enjoy!

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"Did I think too much? The special feeling that was between us wasn’t just pure friends? Why can’t I find this feeling with Junsu then?" Fany thought.

As he walked across a pavement. he stopped at a tombstone, “I still love you, don’t I?”

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*Back at the studio*

"Aish, what’s wrong with hyung?" Junsu annoyingly sat down and pouted.

"Hyung" Changmin faced Yunho, "Yoochun hyung likes Fany-ssi?"

Everyone, except Changmin, could roughly figure out the answer. But… they were hoping that things would not happen as they have imagined.

In the mean time, Fany was running away from the building, heading to a place that would definitely make her feel better: her mother’s tombstone. Fany reached the cemetery and panted.”Geez, I’ve never ran so much before.” She thought. Slowly, she dragged her feet towards her mother’s tombstone, brushing her sole against the fallen maple leaves. As she reached before her mother’s tombstone, tears started trickling down her flawless face.

"Omma, I won’t be feeling like this if you were still here right?" Fany whispered as she bent down on her knees. Fany’s mother left her when she was still in her early teens, leaving her to explore the definition of love by herself.

"Omma, how? What should I do?" Fany said as she brushed her fingers against her long and silking hair. Although her mother left her when she was still very young, out of all her family members, she was the closest to her mother. Even after her mother’s death, Fany would always visit her when she’s feeling down. Fany always thought that her mother was her guardian angel.

At the same time, same place, Yoochun was also crouching down, brushing his finger tips against the picture displaced on the tombstone.

"MiYoung-ah, I still love you, don’t I?" Tear trickled down his cheeks as he remembered what happened earlier in the morning.

*Flashback starts*

*Phone rings early in the morning*

"Yeobusaeyo?" Yoochun asked lazily.

"Yoochun-ssi, still remember me?" A cold voice whispered at the end of the phone line.

*This voice sounds familiar…. * Yoochun wondered.

"KIM MISOON?!" Yoochun tensed up and immediately woke up from his "daze".

"Pabo Chun, what took you so long to recognise my voice" The voice at the other end sounded annoyed.

"Mianhae MiSoon-ah, I never expected a call from you ever since what happened 5 years ago…" Yoochun apologised and his heart sank a little when he mentioned "5 years ago".

"…" the other caller remained silent/

"So, how’s life?" Yoochun started the conversation.

"Yoochun-ssi, you’re asking me how’s my life after ruining my happiness?! Seriously, I can’t understand why unnie still loved you that much even till her deathbed." The caller shouted.

"Sorry, I really did not know what to do… I.. wait.. What deathbed are you talking about?!" Yoochun’s heart rate started to accelerate, trying to think that MiSoon might just be exaggerating like she used to.

"Unnie! MiYoung Unnie! You bastard! She died 2 years ago over the depression you’ve inflicted on her. For the past 3 years, have you ever wondered how she survived day by day?!"

"…" Yoochun did not know what to say… He accidentally dropped the phone on the floor and many sweet memories of him and MiYoung resurfaced in his mind.

"Yeobusaeyo?Yeobusaeyo?" The caller on the other end screamed.

*MiYoung -ah, Wae? What happened then wasn’t the perfect ending I could have given you but I couldn’t think of something better that could end your misery…* Yoochun thought.

Suddenly, the call ended and Yoochun received a text.

"301 Mayline Drive,

Tomb number: 501”

Yoochun saw and grabbed the phone tightly to his chest.

"Dolphin Junsu!!!" You better get back here now!!" Yoochun could hear Fany’s voice coming from the corridor.

*Ohgod, I don’t want her to be the next one.* Yoochun whispered. He stood up, wiped off his tears and went in front of Fany and Junsu.

"Behave yourself! Don’t act like you are that close to us…" Yoochun whispered to Fany as he walked past coldly, hearing all the remarks that Fany made. However, Fany didn’t hear what Yoochun whispered afterwards,"Mianhae Fany", countless of apologies.

*Flashback ends*

Yoochun stood up and shouted “MiYoung Mianhae, Fany Mianhae!”

"Who’s that person screaming?!" Fany thought. (Remember that they were at the same place just different parts of it)

*Back at the studio*

"Hyung, its getting late and Fany-ssi isn’t back…" Junsu asked Yunho worriedly,

"Don’t tell me you like her too?" Yunho crossed his arms.

"ANIYO! I remember Fany-ssi saying that there’s a shooting tonight but I can’t remember which one exactly." Junsu rubbed his head.

Suddenly, they heard that someone was opening the door and hoped that Fany returned but it was Yoochun.

"WHAT?" Yoochun was surprised when he saw everyone staring at him.

"Hyung, did you see Fany-ssi on your way here?"Changmin asked.

"Why? She isn’t back yet?" Yoochun’s voice sounded worried,

Everyone started shaking their head.

"SHIT!" Yoochun cursed. He immediately shut the door and ran to his car. The only thing that was on his mind was finding Fany. He punched her numbers on to his keypad, hoping that she would answer her phone.

"Damn, why isn’t she answering her phone?!" He tossed his phone to the back seat and started driving.

*Nothing must happen to you..* Yoochun prayed.

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Chapter 6

A/N: This chapter is freaking short! next chapter will be longer(:

"Yah! What’s the meaning of this?! Don’t act like you are very close to us?! Who was the one that got so emotional yesterday?" Fany almost wanted to cry. 

"Don’t tell me you L*** me?" Yoochun smirked. 

"Er..Erm.. I.." Fany knew she wasn’t in love with Yoochun. She couldn’t help but feel that there is a certain feeling with him, as if she knew him very well, as if they were once together.

"So you do like me? Can’t you just nail it in your head that we can’t be together, no wait, I won’t even have feelings for you!" Yoochun made it seemed as if Fany wasn’t even worth his love at all. He said and immediately turned his back against Fany. 

"I didn’t even say I love you! You are the one that thought too much!" Fany immediately ran away. 

"Mianhae Fany.. there’s just someone in my heart that I’ve been yearning for more than you.. I just can’t seem to forget her." Yoochun just sat down and started playing the piano, while the rest of the members started coming in. 

"Hyung! What happened to Fany-ssi? Why did she just run off like that?" Junsu questioned worriedly. 

Yoochun paused for a moment and started playing on the piano again, totally ignoring the members’ existence. 

"Yah! Hyung! Answer me!!!" Junsu screamed

Suddenly, Yoochun banged the keys, causing instant silence in the room. Everyone was shocked by Yoochun’s actions. Never had he vented his anger on the piano before and even this strongly in front of his members. 

"Ask her yourself if you want to know so much!" Yoochun stood up and went out of the room. 

"Yoochun likes her right? And she has the same feeling too right? I gave him the first chance and I’m not going to let her be the next one.. " Someone thought in the room. 

"Did I think too much? The special feeling that was between us, was it just pure friends? Why can’t I find this feeling with Junsu or the rest of the members then?" Fany thought. 

As Yoochun walked across the pavement, he stopped at a tombstone. “I still love you, don’t I?”

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Chapter 5

“Babo Chun!” Fany sighed as she started to caress his face…

“Omo what am I doing?” Fany paused for a moment and thought that Yoochun looked even handsome at such a close up.

“Chun-ssi, how I wish this moment can last forever…”

Alarm clock rings


Fany yawned as she got herself out of the bed. “Eh! Why am I at home?”

Flashback starts~ “Omo what am I doing?” Fany paused for a moment and thought that Yoochun looked even handsome at such a close up.

“Chun-ssi, how I wish this moment can last forever…”

Flashback ends~

Fany could not help but blush when she thought of that scene.

“Wasn’t I with Yoochun yesterday? Did he bring me home?” Unknowingly, Fany’s mouth curved up.

“Fany-ah! Wake up! You have work today! Miss! If I know that you are not treating your job seriously, you will definitely get it from me! Do you hear me?!”

“Yah Ahjussi!!! I treat it whole-heartedly okays!!” Fany retorted. ” Ahjussi, mind if i ask you something?”

“You are going to ask me how you got home yesterday like a heavy log??” Ahjussi smirked.

“OMG! So he did bring me home!!! Hey! Why am I a log?!” Fany shouted.

“And I take the ‘he’ as Yoochun? I was quite surprised when I saw him carrying you in his arms… Well, I have not seen this side of him for a very long time ever since…” Ahjussi’s voice slowly softens down.

” but you do know he’s nice to every girl right? You know what i mean..”

After hearing what Ahjussi said, she was feeling so mixed up. She had to admit that her heart did beat faster when she knew that Yoochun was the one that brought her home in his warm arms. However, the world seemed to have stopped for a second when her ahjussi told her that Yoochun was kind to every other girl , which made her less special…

When Fany reached SM building, she looked around to see if Yoochun was anywhere near her.

“Boo!”

“Ah!”

“Fany-ssi, i scared you, didn’t I?? Eu Kyang Kyang!!”

“Dolphin-Junsu!!! You better get back here now!!”

“Behave yourself! Don’t act like you are that close to us…” Yoochun whispered to Fany as he walked past coldly

“Boh?!” Fany mouthed out in shock. She can’t deny that she became to close with DBSK that brightens her life every now and then.. Maybe Fany was really becoming a fan herself. What upsetted her the most was Yoochun’s words. He was so different from yesterday.. Where did all the warmth go to? Fany couldn’t hide her disappointment and ran up to Yoochun.

“Yah! What’s the meaning of this?! Don’t act like you are close to us?! Who was the one that got so emotional yesterday?!” Fany almost wanted to cry.

” Don’t tell me…”

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Chapter 4

A/N

I’m typing this chapter with my phone so there may be some errors:(

Just as she was about to open the door, to her surprise, she saw YOOCHUN!

“Yah, yoochun-ssi! What are you doing here?!” Fany screamed

” I should be the one asking that! Keep your volume down! Aish, come with me!” yoochun demanded

Before Fany could react, she was already dragged away by Yoochun. Only to realise that they have been holding hands…

” Let go of me! NOW!!” both of then were running real fast and Fany was about to fall when Yoochun suddenly stopped running, which really caused her to fall.

” Yah! Next time when you’re going to do that again, please make sure that I’m aware of it! I’m not a sprint runner you know!!!” Fany complained.

” Stop with the complaining! Why are you here?! Stalking me??” Yoochun yelled.

” Me stalk you?! Hell no! What does my presence got to do with you? And why must you pull me away?! I’m HUNGRY!!!” Fany shouted back

“Babo ah jincha!” Yoochun thought

” Are you mad or something? I’m an idol for goodness sake! You just shouted my name loudly just now. You wouldn’t want us to be in deep trouble right?!” Yoochun exclaimed.

” Oops…” Fany lowered down her head. She knew that what Yoochun said made sense. She wouldn’t want to implicate him into a big scandal. Most importantly, not including herself!!!

“you are alone tonight” out of a sudden, Yoochun’s voice suddenly turned gentle and calm.

“Erm…ya…” Fany nodded her head.

” Oh okay. Then keep me company for the night then.”Yoochun muttered.

Fany realised that Yoochun was really not in his usual self. Usually, he would be mocking at Fany for being alone on Valentine’s Day and he should be spending the day with the rest of his groupmates. But today, his usual smirk was no longer there. His ever cold eyes suddenly turned into eyes filled with love and sorrow, quite similar to when he sings. He looked as if he was about to break down soon with his hands crossed and head bowing down.

“Yoochun-ssi. Are you Er- okay?” Fany placed her hand on Yoochun’s holder which sent a shock throughout his body.

“Oh I’m fine. Just thinking about something. Let me take you to somewhere” Yoochun struggled for a smile on his face and brought Fany to a bridge

“Sit down” Yoochun patted on the empty patch of grass next to him.

“Yoochun-ssi, mind if I’m probing too much? Is there something wrong with you?” Fany questioned, hoping that she would be of some help.

“I had this girlfriend. I really loved her a lot. But when she introduced me to her sister, I got attracted to her too. She eventually found out what happened and was really pissed. Of course, her sister also knew about it and wanted me to come to a decision soon. I did not know what I was thinking and just broke up with the both of them. Remember that restaurant that we met at just now? It was the place where I had last seem them. Now if I was able to turn back time, I would make sure that I would not meet them at all. Since then, I’ve lost contact with then… I wonder how they are doing now?” After saying, Yoochun laid his head on Fany’s lap…

” That’s really sad… I broke out with my beloved Oppa too, at that same restaurant when I found out that he was two-timing.. Quite a sad experience for me too… Do you know..” Fany was suddenly interrupted by the shores of Yoochun.

“Babo Chun!” Fany sighed as she started to caress his face…

“Omo what am I doing?” Fany paused for a moment and thought that Yoochun looked even more handsome at such a close-up.

“Chun-ssi, how I wish this moment can last forever…”

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Chapter 3

A/N(:

For your convenience, you can just press the “Archive” button at the right side then view the chapter you want because sometimes its quite troublesome to be always scrolling downwards to see the last chapter that you have read(: 

Anyways, this chapter will be quite long(: but so sorry that there won’t be a lot of pictures): Enjoy!!!(:

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Slowly. they started taking individual pictures.. but this guy really started to catch my attention… 

"Sharp features, absolutely captivating eyes… Jaejoong-ah=] Oh No! Fany get a grip of yourself! You’ll be freaking dead if anyone knows what’s going on in this head of yours!" Fany thought.

Soon, the photoshoot was already over and the guys headed to SM building to practice the songs for their new album. Though all of them were not in make-up anymore, but they still looked really fabulous in only their track pants and normal shirts, except for those two….

"O O oh O oh ije nan duryeowo, bandaomaneul wihan bandae

 O O Oh O oh kkeutto eopshi pyoruhage dweneun geol…” The intro of the song was already enough to make at least 1000 fans faint from excitement. Although the audio was already playing for them, their fierce voice could be heard in the whole room. Those synchronized dance moves, sexy voices, vivid expressions… No wonder so many fans are in love with them. Sweat could soon be seen soaking their shirt, adding on to their hotness^^ 

"Wae? He looks so different when he puts his heart, mind and soul into the music… How I wish he would always be like this!" Fany wondered. 

After multiple practices of the song, they decided to practice on their slower song first for them to cool down. 

"You only love (my only love) I can’t never give up (I can’t never know) he-eojini geudae seontaegingayo. You only love na-ul jeonbu-ingeoryo. You only love my life… You Only Love My Life" 

"I couldn’t believe my ears… How could their voices be so perfect?! I mean, most of the idols now actually choose to lipsync on stage but DBSK sounds so good live too! All of them seemed to have important roles in the group. Yunho oppa’s suitable for singing those really low notes, Jaejoong oppa has this really sweet melodious voice that melts everyone’s hearts, Changmin oppa’s voice is so everlasting, being able to hit high and low notes, Junsu oppa’s voice is so freaking high pitched, I don’t even think mine could reach to that pitch, Yoochun ssi’s voice is so special, a husky and romantic voice that sends goosebumps all over me… as if he was really expressing his love and emotions just through the song.." Fany thought. 

Just by seeing their necks turning red and those visible veins, even an anti can see how much effort they have put in to perfect the song, allowing no room for mistakes.

By the  time  they had finished practicing, it was already 3:00 a.m.. For Fany, she was sitting at a small corner planning for their schedule for the next day while being a fan of theirs, screaming inside, for the whole time. 

"Hmm, since they got hardly any sleep today, I should just let them rest for the morning and film for a cf then practice again at night." Fany muttered. 

As DBSK were making their way to the dorm in their van, Fany started annoucing to them their schedules for that day. 

"You guys trained for quite a long time so just rest for the day and start work later in the afternoon till night. That’s all I’m going to say. Any questions?"


"Hey, do you even have a date?" this familiar yet cold voice echoed in the van. Fany turned around and saw Yoochun.

"Yoochun ssi, it is none of your business! I don’t see how my relationship affairs actually concerns you!" Fany didn’t like people to ask about her love life. Since the last relationship she had, she never thought of getting a new boyfriend. To put it simple, "Love" and " boyfriend" disappeared from her dictionary. 

"What the hell! Why would I be interested in your love life?! Tomorrow’s, no wait, TODAY’S VALENTINE’S DAY! Don’t tell me you have forgotten?! I thought females love this day the most???" Yoochun ended his sentence with a smirk. 

"Thanks for your concern! my boyfriend and I already have plans and no way will it affect your schedule!" Fany retorted sarcastically. 

For the rest of the journey, Fany did not have the mood to chat with the boys like what she would normally do. She spent the entire time looking out of the window. 

"It’s Valentine’s Day today huh? Maybe I’ve been too busy and forgotten all about it… Last year, oppa and I had a wonderful dinner at this freaking famous and expensive Korean Restaurant… but it was also the same place where oppa initiated the break up when I tried my best to forgive and forget. This year’s Valentine, am I going to be alone?" Fany wondered. 

Fany decided to let herself and also the boys relax for just one day, so they were only required to film the CF and have the whole night to themselves.
 

"Shit! Why must the theme of the CF be about Valentine’s Day?! Reminding me of the significance of chocolates and roses… Haiz" Fany cursed.

Fany couldn’t bear another second to be seeing the boys beaming so widely with the bouquets of roses and chocolates in their hands. They only  reminded her of one thing, “Love”, which was something that she has been trying the hardest to forget. She stood up and went out of the recording room silently, but this was noticed by one of the boys… 

"What happened to her?! She have been behaving this weird ever since she knew today was Valentine’s Day…" the guy wondered. 

Soon, which seemed like ages to Fany, the shooting was finally over. 

"Fany-ah! Any plans for later? We are planning to have a party at hyung’s house! *points to Yunho* Want to come along?" Junsu asked. 

"Mianhae, count me out. I have something to attend to later." Fany faked an answer out. 

"Oh." Junsu replied. 

":Junsu-ssi, Fany has her boyfriend to accompany her for the whole night, you don’t have to worry about her" Yoochun smirked. 

"This Yoochun-ssi! Can’t he just stop picking on me?!" Fany cursed. 

Then, Fany and the boys parted ways. 

"I should just dine at that Korean Restaurants… it’s been a long time since I last dined there.." Fany wondered. 

*Dials numbers* 

" Hello is this _______ Restaurant? I would like to make a reservation later for dinner"

"okay, a table for??"

"urm 1" Fany hesitated

"Oh.. okay"

"why did my "1" sound so weird over the phone? Did i really sound like someone who just broke up with another person?" Fany  thought. 

As she stood in front of the Korean Restaurant, her past memories started to flood her brain. The scenes of her beloved oppa hugging her and giving her a bouquet of roses outside. 

"Aish! I really have to stop thinking about that" Fany muttered. 

Just as she was about to open the door, to her surprise, she saw YOOCHUN!

"Yah! what are you doing here?!"" Fany screamed.

" I should be the one asking you that! Keep your voice down! Aish. Come with me!" Yoochun demanded. 

Before Fany could react in time, she found herself dragged away by Yoochun. Only to realise that they were actually holding hands….

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